she makes the sound the sea makes to calm me down

oh life isn't simple...

sóley - pretty face

alt-j - dissolve me








- varis

i'm back!

hi. i haven't been doing very well for quite some time so that's why i haven't updated anything neither on this blog or lookbook until now. but i'm back now, though i'll today just quickly give you a look from just over a week ago.

you'd be supposed to hear more about me later.

- varis

i was supposed to have wings

ohh i finally received these lovely leggings of which i've dreamed about for over a year! now honestly, i dunno why i just didn't order them earlier. it's not a bad price, seven dollars, isn't it!

erutan - rose of may







oh, and the sun's begung to shine here again! after the darker days (despite the fact that this winter has been quite a lot easier) it feels so strange; i would never have guessed it would be so hard to adjust to that!

- varis

mom's little girl wants to touch the other side

noticed my new look i added yesterday? i was too sleepy and my stomach hurted way too much so i didn't see "sitting down and starting to write a whole new post" as a very tempting idea, or neither necessary. instead, i'll give you a few more photos in the end of this post!

such many lovely things have taken place lately. i had my prom! i've got so much pictures to show you and i can't help feeling still quite rapt, yet a little wistful. but since that was a day (or two days, technically) so very unique and the photos taken are numerous, it might take a while until i've gone through 'em all. i hope you understand! that was something that made me feel more happy than i've been for years, i discovered a whole new world with whole new feeligs. actually, my vat of belief in life began to fill itself so quickly and without warning that i'm amazed i even managed to hold it stable. a week has passed, and it has stayed almost as full as it was then; much nearer to its neverending borders after all. i've experienced all those new, positive feelings and longings during this week even though i've done almost nothing but slept. they are things like trust, love, dreams and calm, and i must say they really are pretty awesome.

so i've had a week off from school, and i actually disrealized it until now. now it's only the weekend that's left, and i'm definitely not ready to get back to all that school work, stress and stuff. but today i was shopping with my mom, and we did have quite a wonderful day! zara had final sales and i bought some wonderful pieces, two shirts 10€ each, trousers for five euros and a top of same price. being the person i am, i got a very bad conscience for buying such many items at the same time.
we had dinner there as well, and did some other little shopping including the endless circling at the furniture stores trying to find me a wardrobe, even a lamp (!), and not succeeding in either. anyhow, it was fun. i also saw a wonderful thing that will maybe develop to something just great in the future, but i don't feel like telling about that yet. eh, more than i did.

pictures, there you go:







- varis

hush now dear children

erutan - come little children
i've been feeling very tired lately. it's quite hard to survive even the few lessons i have, and so i've made the coming school period a little easier for me as well.
meanwhile, i've been spending my days off (and my almost days off) very dissatisfyingly. while i had been planning going to gym, reading italy, shopping and watching a good movie maybe, i managed to sleep over half the day, and that did make me feel depressed. since i didn't feel like leaving for the city the time i woke up, i read about handmixers (now really, and i'm supposed to be a teenager) and went out walking with the purpose to eventually drop by buying one. however there was none left, so i got home with a disney, some groceries and must-have earrings for my mom. they expressed quotation marks, and she is a librarian. now let me explain a little: in finland we use the same word for a quote and to borrow (a book for example), so the library has taken the quotes as their logo. and those lil' earringies were even on sale, i got them for only two euros. how awesome that was!

i also found something nice for myself (in addition to disney's robin hood); a lovely looking second-hand store and a few other random boutiques worth of checking out. sadly enough, it was too late to enter any of those since i had woken up so late. but it only takes like fifteen minutes walking from our new place so i gonna visit them soon anyway!
today, instead, i found a new favourite musician: she's called erutan. i just love all her arragements, they have everything it takes to get me hooked. her youtube channel is worth of visiting, trust me! tomorrow i'll find out if they sell her first album anywhere here in finland. i would love it so very much to have it material, even though she sells 'em online as well.

now i have to head for the bed! there's just a new look (from 27.1.2013) that needs to be quickly presented. it's mainly second-hand stuff as well;

- varis

swan lake and the metro, again

yesterday it was my one big dream that came true. i visited a ballet for the first time in my life. it was the swan lake by kenneth greve. and what an experience it was! i was totally enchanted, i just imbibed those moves and sounds, the dresses, tutus and that declamatory gloriousness. there's such overall beauty in the way the dancers carry theirselves; they are proud and confident yet almost unreachable. they don't exist for the audience but just do their things, and people love them. i don't mean they wouldn't respect people that come to see them, but their dance isn't just "a show" to be presented for us.

i guess my tiredness and the current impatience, having had too little sleep lately, are dimly visible in my words, preventing them from expressing my meanings. the bed does tempt me a lot while i still can't feel myself being near enough of falling asleep. i should quit anyway though, my late-night yarns mustn't be very productive. after all, yesterday very much strenghtened and deepened my love towards that incredible dance.

i'll just quickly present my newest look:

- varis

snowy wonderland

why am i always so terribly late! these shots are from december 26th and but just haven't got a grip on myself and put them up. i think they turned out pretty nice and that's why i had extra troubles with choosing the best.

oh, better late than never right? here ya go!

- varis

pssst. i still have an unpublished look from time we didn't have snow. ah god. i liked it a lot so i thought like "well i'm going to take time editing this"... which i, obviously, never did.